The Runaway

Running away has never been a solution to any problem.

It may bring less pain, but it reveals no truth,

and gives no improvement,

it causes confusion.

it is not a solution.

One needs lots of courage and bravery to face problems.

Taking each risky step,

still wondering what the ending would be.

But still, we hope for the best,

hope that everything will turn out right.

Be careful, be prepared,

things often turn out the way it shouldnt be,

always unexpected, as it is out of our control.

Life is just full of surprises.

I guess I will never be able to take that place and that role.

It means too much to you.

I guess things are in the right place this time. =)

I wont stop loving you.♥

I trusted you, that's why I gave you my heart.
Now let me remind/warn you, it's really fragile.
Please take good care of it and always keep it safe.
Or else..
I dont know how long it can hold on.
I dont know when I'll want to take it back.

好累啊..
有时,我不想再主动了; 不想再热情了; 不想自动送上门了.
因为..你不会珍惜.
我开始有些累了,你知道吗?

I dont want this to ever end.
But I cant lie to myself, I feel insecure.
I'm serious, I think it's shaking.
But I really wish i can hear you say:
"Everything is going to be alright. No worries dear."
I love you so much my heart hurts.

If you think I'm being childish, think again.
ask yourself, Do you really understand what I'm saying here?
Or, do you still think that you're right?

Show me that you care...
if only you would care.. for me.. =)
love u ♥

from the heart of this morning..

哀乐交叉

I got what I like, and what I wanted.
I'm satisfied and very grateful.
Hope I didnt let anyone down. But maybe I already did. Sigh~
Happy? Not happy? Neutral? Confused?

I look at your faces, I dont know what to do, I dont know what to say.
Life.. is full of surprises. We should expect the unexpected.
Though I didnt really saw it coming.
We're still one big family right? =)
Love you~


有时候，我想把野兽收起来；我只想做兔子。。
你能接受有时候吗？♥

Love me for who I am.

People change a lot dont they? Yes, people do change, a lot sometimes.
The time, the surroundings, the stress, the different experiences.
No doubt people are TRYING to change for the better, but not all succeed you know?
Each day we grow a little more and change a little more too.
We try to be a little nicer as we live each day.
Keep up the good work! =)

Accept the challenge:
Say something nice to your friends everyday.
It doesnt have to be very flattering, just a simple praise will do.
Or maybe just show some appreciation to what he/she has done for you.
It isnt that hard really. All you need is a little courage and a friendly smile on your face.
Just a few words from a friend warms the heart.
Your words will add sunshine to your friend's day.
You'll never know if that little sugar is all he/she needs to face the day with strength.
The best part of it? It's FOC!

有谁可以告诉我？
为何等了良久、痴痴守着20分 脚步不离的我，
既然没有几分的生气呢？
天啊，自从什么时候我的脾气变得这么好？
咋到~ =X

I cant Breathe

I'm afraid, I dont know what lies ahead.
Scared, too scared of everything around me.
Where's my bravery? Where's my confidence?
I'm crying, I'm doubting myself.
What do I really want?
I'm terrified, terrified by the little little mistakes that may lead to failure.
How am I going to survive? Oh God, Save me!
*breathes strongly*
I must decide how I'll face my tomorrows.
I wont back off; I'll continue to strive.
Fail or Succeed? Let God decide, let the authorities decide.
Let there be sunshine and let there be rain;
But no matter what, I'll walk through the pain.

I'll try to give my best, please forgive me, and wish me luck.

I really really need your comfort and support.

What's done, is done.

Ok, this photo is taken today. x) Oops, yea.. I go cut my hair again. lolz
Arghz... too short. And it's all my fault, I really regret it!
I kept saying to the hairstylist: "Shorter. Shorter."
Hairstylist: "Har?! cut somemore arh? So short?"
Me: "Later kena disiplin. Shorter."
Hairstylist: "oh, ok."
Stupid me...! Should have kept my mouth shut. sighz
Before i decided to snip it, i asked many friends for their opinions. So many people ask me not to cut. But honestly, I really beh tahan dy, whenever mummy sees people with that hairstyle (eg: Xandria Ooi),
she'll say: "Amy should cut this type of hairstyle. Really suitable." -.-
But I wont deny that I wanted to try again lo. So, I cant blame anyone but myself.
If, somebody will tell me something I really want to hear right now, I'll fly! But of course, it must be sincere.

Something worth being happy for:
I went to KL for tuition. Then after my physics lesson, I went SHOPPING!
I passed by this store, then I noticed the big banner that said: 70% Discount
Haha. I bought 2 pairs of shoes. x) lolz.. i found the shopperholic in me.
sorry, camera no battery dy, so no pictures. anyway, here are some details.

Shoe#1
color: black
height: flat
design: golden buckle
occasions: casual
Original price: RM25
I spent: RM20
Bought from: Kota Raya

Shoe#2
color: white
height: 1 inch
design: golden bow
occasions: formal
Original price: RM59.90 (according to the Tauke)
Price of the day: RM25
I spent: RM20
Bought from: Store along Petaling Street

I was so happy I couldnt stop smiling on my way home.Totally excited. Now I know why people say shopping makes people happy. *winkx*
When I think of my purse being lighter, there's a little heartache. But then again, when I think of the 2 pair of pretty shoes in my hands, I'll smile again. =) Think of the price, cheaper than a pair of school shoes, damn worth it!

8th-10th of June,
I went to Broga, Semenyih for a camp. I was the 营长. =)
Will update a post with photos later. ^^ Cause the photos are not with me. Give me sometime, will post it. I promise.

Up next, tomorrow,
going down to Federal Hotel, Star Hill.
Go claim my RM80 from Kasturi for getting 8As in PMR. Yay!
I'll meet about 50+ chs-ians.See ya! ^^

That's all for today. Chaoz. =)
GOOD LUCK in EXAMS EVERYONE!

♥I'm sorry. I think too much.
Dont know what else to say.
I'll stay by your side.
ILoveYou.♥

I'm still Alive

Didnt blog on Sunday & Monday...
Well, it's because I...was busy..
lol.... with homework~
understood la...

So, catch up with me! ^^

11/1/09, Sunday
If u have no idea of what I do on Sundays,
The answer is, Church day~
All Sundays are fully booked! unless i make an exception ^^
Sermon of the day:
1. by Pastor Khon, "Giving urself to God"
-Give urself willingly to God
-Live for Christ

2. by 1 of our youth fellowship teachers, Benjamin Chan
-Luke 16, Being a good housekeeper
Are u a good housekeeper of God? ^^

And of course I had a fine day with my friends~

Every Sunday morning, before church (8:45am)
I go to 沙 登 新 村 学 校 校 友 会 for choir..
Turned out WenBin was teaching the kids again...
Because my teacher, (Ms?) Shamy Lai & John Ling (her newly wedded husband),
Went for Honey Moon! ^^ Heard they went to Bali.

Refilled with Love, Hope & Faith


12/1/09, Monday
Simple day~ Nothing big or special..
But I'm...a little disappointed of this boring day.
Did the Program Maju Diri, O.O 150 questions!
Waiting for the analyzing day to come..
'Cause I so wanna know more abt ME! ^^

During Physics, ShiYi... drew something...
So ugly! XD Ok, I admit I did help a little here & there.
We agreed that I would post it here,
unfortunately,
she hasnt send me the photo of our "masterpiece"
U'd make a "so lame" face , smile a little & shake ur head,
or Laugh ur breakfast out~
I was a good girl, trying to focus on what Bro. John was teaching. But as for ShiYi, she was too 'high' all thanks to her creativity. She start with a panda, then it became a bear, she added dog forelegs, continued with frog hindlegs. Later, it had a dugong's tail, a lion's mane,
tiger stripes, giraffe spots.....where do I stop?!?!
She finished it with some colorful touches
using all the HighLighters & pens she could get her hands on...
-.-''' big weird ugly creature~

My sister & I, the Kyle XY fans...
After school, we threw our bags on the floor,
& glued our butts to the chairs in front of the pc.
On youtube, we watched the season 2's episode 10 & 11.
Great show it sure was~♥

Plus, my elder sister's got her ears stuck with Talyor Swift's Love Story~
Lol...I've been listening to this song a lot lately,
And so she heard, watched the Movie Video,
& fell in love with it~
She's really addicted dy... ^^

#I wanna be part of your life#
♥Working on a day for u♥

13/1/09, Tuesday

Not anyhow super today...
I'm having the "nothing" mood with a "nothing" face..^^

Physics... I was sleepy... T.T
The 2 boys behind me...
TOTALLY FELL ASLEEP!
until the very second the class stood up,
& thanked Bro John...

Meet Adrian(Chia YY) today, ^^
he was waiting for his mummy...
He was walking around the school...alone
Wondered where he's FRIEND was...

Went for Hijau practice...
Wa... Panting away~
I really need lots of pracitce...
I did quite well, but I'm not that satisfied...
I know I can do better~
I got 19th among the P2s last year!
Shh... I'm aiming top 15 this year~
Lolz... hopefully

Was really really really tired,
walked back to school, to the library,
got my bag, went to my sis' class (U6B),
I was still breathing hard~
& mayb coz my sis' classroom to small & stuffy,
I think i was LACK OF OXYGEN~
Felt dizzy & felt like vomiting...-.-

Dont worry, I'm alright~ ^^

Is this a dream or is it not?
'Cause I cant live in dreams forever...
But I dont want to wake up;
At least, not yet...
Please let it last for a little longer...

♥Once again I smiled, BECAUSE OF U.♥

Saturday = Jaring Day!

Jaring~jaring...KBJ
Have i told u how much i ♥ Jaring?
I LOVE JARING!
dont worry, I LOVE LM TOO!

I ran at least 10 rounds of the Jaring court...
Continuously 5 & 5...
Then played ball...2 rounds!
Wah...so sweaty today...
1st match: 14 vs 11 (my team lost)
But we are proud,
frm 0 we catch up till 11 during the last half!
Amazing weyy! ^^
2nd match: forgot the score (my team won)
Still proud... won without Andrew on the team~
*claps-claps* haha!

Then came back home lo...
was really tired.
After sending the class curtains(6.5kg) for washing,
Fell asleep...on the floor of my living room~ >.<

Mum's friend came down from Melaka.
She brought with her a leng zai!
lol... really...her zai(son)...
2007 he transfered frm melaka to chs...
2+ months later, he transfered back..
Coz his mum lo... have to go back to melaka to work...
Took him with her~
I havent seem him since a year ago...
haha... Desmond Shak is the name...
Leng zai dy~ ^^
we were once neighbours too!
our mums are... very close..
Hmmm....too close..
like she's my second mum... >.<
He did his SPM last year, T.T on the 18th of Jan,
He'll be flying to Perth, Australia!
Going there to further his studies...
How nice~ *envies* >.<

After dinner,
me, younger sis, Desmond & mummy(x2),
went to Jusco to 'walk-walk' after dinner.
nthg much..
I bought:
♥ a new water bottle
♥ NEW SPORT SHOES!
Muahahaha! [so overwhelmed]

Just an simple, nice, happy day~ ^^

Something I dont want to care so much of:
YongQing told me that
he overheard some ppl saying that
some of my classmates(boys of coz)
READ MY DIARY!
WT*! how could boys be so 8?!?!
U better surrender urselves before
I get to find out!
Or U'LL BE SO DEAD!
lolz... watever la...

♥carebear♥ [winkx]

Extra sumting

那些大头贴很美。。。真的很美。。。


if ever asked 4 reason of silence...
i stay silent....
Unwillingly 2 talk is the answer...
saying 4 not in the mood...
mind-blanked....
so blanked....


'un'understanding jealousy might any1 say...
watever... n anyting u say....
do i care...
will i care....
should i care?

double siding lost... breaking all apart....

Closer n closer I gain to the portal.... Just a step away n wouldnt I be in Neverland...