Mixed

Since it's holidays right now, I should post something right? =P

Saw this as KaiNee's status today: わたしは、あなたがいなくて寂しいです
Pronounced as watashiwa, anata ga inakute sabishii desu.
It means I miss you.

Really nice. And i found this:

There is no direct way to say "I miss you" in Japanese. Japanese people are not very direct and open about their emotions, as a result they have to express "I miss you" in a more round about way.

First, you need to know how you want to address the person:

• あなた (anata): very informal; used by both men & women to people they are very familiar with.
• 君 (kimi): same as anata, however it is more masculine; usually used by men
• (name)ーさん (-san): formal; when attached to the end of a name it means Mr./Mrs.
• (name)ーちゃん (-chan): informal; when attached to the end of a name it changes it into a "nickname"

Here are two ways to express "I miss you"

• XXX に会いたい(です)。

XXX ni ai tai (desu).

literally: I want to see XXX.

*desu can be omitted in informal situations

*It is similar to the way 보고싶어 (bogoshipeo) means "I miss you" when it literally means I want to see you.

• XXX がいなくて(私は)寂しい(です)。

XXX ga inakute, (watashi wa) sabishii (desu).

literally: When XXX (are/is) not here, (I) am lonely.

*desu can also be omitted

*watashi wa is often omitted because it is implied

original answer:

i miss you - Anata ga inakute sabishii yo :)

yey
わたしは、あなたがいなくて寂しいです。

Japanese exam coming up! Jiayou Jiayou! ^^

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Amy has so many many things to say~~
Both bitter and sweet.

Sweetz - A touching moment

Went out with Qing last friday. We had a suddenly plan of watching The Prince of Persia.
Since it was sudden, i was totally unprepared, didnt bring jacket.
When it was cold in there, he always made sure that I wasnt feeling chilly.
I liked that feeling. =P But only later I found out,
that when he was keeping me warm, he was actually freezing himself!

Totally touched! ♥

Thanks dear. =) 




Bitterz - When it's painful
 Tonnes of things poured upon me lately

I told YeeHliang i've sunken into a situation he was in through fb. And it sucks!

What for i spend so much time on you? Take care of you and always strive my best for you?

Why did I fight so hard for you? I loved you a hundred times better than now.

Now you just keep hurting and hurting me.

Shouldnt have stood up. So what? Very yeng is it?

Now you make me feel like i should have stayed among the dumb sheeps.

Then all I have to do is follow.

Why cant I stop loving you still?

Has anyone ever known that the idea of ending my life once passed my mind?
God, I've sinned.
It's rather recent. Everything's COMING.
I was so stressed that i wanted to just let go of everything.
I'm a faker, or maybe a psycho - those with multiple characters.
Being some many different me under different circumstances.

I'm sorry, I'm dumb, I'm a failure.
Do you realize how many times i apologize in a day?
I dont either. Sometimes I just dont know what else to say other than I'm sorry.
Because I really feel sorry. Sometimes for you, but most for myself.
I'm so pathetic! It's heartbreaking to see myself like this.
If I were you, I'll be so sick and tired of hearing me apologize.
I dont know is another famous one.
I dont know is it because of you.
You see this? Grr.. Sorry. Here I go again. I just cant stop!
Very mao dun right? Maybe cause of my emo mood now.
Sorry.

Now I'm suddenly thinking that things are done behind my back

Actually they are right? Fine.

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Yea, so this post will end EMO-ly. whatever.

To the ppl that really cares for me out there. I'm sorry. =/

Can somebody please tell me: WHY ME? =(

Voice: btw, ppl are admired for their courage to speak the truth. but do use your brain.

Listen.

What do I have against you people?

Stop hurting me! Now!

You dont know me!

And there are so many many things that you have no idea of.

You dont know what I've been through.

Who are you to judge me?

Havent you ever thought of thinking for others?

Have you ever tried understanding my stand?

Just Back Off!

You've hurt me enough.

Dear,

Please dont make me feel that I've made wrong decisions.

It's painful that sometimes,
when I'm with you, I always feel wrong.

Why do people even care of being right or wrong?

Those pretty words, they kind of stopped a long time ago huh?

Tell me what my existence mean to you.

=(

I get more confused each day..

Not happy with it.

I'm stupid and pathetic.

Feel so sorry for myself.

When Taylor Swift = ME

If you said sorry,
but still keep repeating the same thing over and over again,

I'm not sure if you're sorry.

Sometimes i really beh tahan u know? BEH TAHAN!
I'm like a lion.. I feeling like biting now! Grrr...
Urgh! *screams!*

Do u know? I'm trying real hard to get to know u more.
I'm desperate. Totally desperate!
I'm learning to Love u. And to love all of u, every single detail of u.
Because u are not perfect. Nobody is.
Excuse me, Are u doing the same? Why do I doubt it?
I dont see improvement seriously! What am I to u?
Why do u always make me feel so wrong? zzz

And, stop it! U are not always right! Not everytime, u only see things the way u do.
Why do u always think that u are correct? absolute?
Maybe there are some things u just cant understand.
Urgh, u r so stubborn! Hard headed!
Do u really really know each and everyone of us?
U dont know what are in our minds.
u used the word 'hate'. HATE!

Sorry. Whatever. I'm mad. I'm pissed.
yea.. someone stepped on my tail and got on my nerves. Whatever!
*Roars*

I hate myself...I LOVE YOU! damn


do u think that i am the problem? i dont think so!

signing off,
12.50am

*The only picture i could find of him.

Name: Boy Boy
Gender: Male
D.O.B: October 2007
Age: 1+

Personality:
-Very Tame
-Manja
-Lazy
-Obedient

My dearest kitty.. passed away this morning.
Cause of death? long story..
It started on the 13^th of August.
I asked my sister to drive me out to the bookshop to buy some stuff.
Then when we came home, as usual the cats were lazing at the car porch.
According to my mum, my sister wasnt driving slow enough.
I wasnt aware though i was in the car. I was enjoying the radio.
My sister was driving into the car pouch when... *bump* the driver's wheel ran over something.
I rushed out of the car! and saw poor BoyBoy crying and growling in extreme pain.
Immediately called the doctor. Then took him to the clinic.
Friday, while I was at the installation, BoyBoy was undergoing surgery for his complete bone fracture located at the right hind leg.
Yesterday night got a phone call from Dr Tan and he said that BoyBoy hasnt been urinating although he drank lots of water. Dr said there's a leakage, the urine leaking into the abdomen.
Dr Tan planned to solve the problem today, but this morning found him dead. His bladder burst.

I didnt get to see him.. since Thursday, he hadnt even had his dinner. Until the day he died, never ate. Saturday afternoon, when I was in school, mummy and my 2 sisters went visit him.

I miss him so much! He was the most obedient cat of the 7 cats.
When I say come, he'll come.
When I say up, he'll jump up on my laps.
When I say out, he'll get out of the room.
When I say No, he'll give me an innocent look, along with a Meow~

I feel guilty.. I was the one who had to go to the bookshop.. sobz..
But the largest guilt, i know, is beared by my elder sister.
She accidently.. in directly... ehhem.. our kitty.
We'll sure miss him. It's sad.

Dumb cat, u should have ran 2 seconds earlier,
u should have ran faster..

Oh, dearest BoyBoy. WE LOVE YOU! Can u hear us?
Always, in memories of the beloved family.


I need you by my side. ♥

抽痛！

她。。。
总是那样完美； 那样体谅；那样坚强；总是那样的了解你。

她。。。
很聪明；很优秀；很本事；惹人喜爱。

我知道你对我要求很高；知道你想要我好，为我好。
也知道自己没有她那样完美。。
哭泣了。
因着让你失望，我向你道歉~

碰触的那一霎那，我听见你声音中的温柔。

在你眼中，野兽只不过是体形较大的兔子而已。。。

杨丞琳-理想情人

Bomb!

He's leaving!
On the 20th of August..
Flying to Canada.. for long a term..
No idea if we'll meet again after that.
Sad case..
Promise we will always think of you de!

Mr LYX~

Just upset

I thought you would know what it feels like when you just dont want ppl to ask you things that'll bring back the unhappy feeling. I thought you would understand.
You used to tell me not to ask so much, cause it makes you feel hurtful, annoyed.
I really had no mood to answer those questions, I dont want to even think about it anymore. Please dont bring it back.. At least not now.
Hopefully, you'll see through my heart.
I'm just upset.

My heart aches..
You're Clueless, You're Foolish.
But I wont stop loving you.

tomorrow ♥

Mummy, I'm sorry.

I feel really really stupid. During that period of time, there was only me and my younger sister at home.

It was 8pm, my stomach was still empty. I recall mum's suggestion through the phone this morning. "If you come home and find that you're hungry, you can steam the big pau in the fridge for dinner." I did exactly the same...NO, not EXACTLY. Something was wrong, I left the the thing to steam and decide to have a rest in the living room. You see, I then fell asleep.

Woken up by my sister, I lifted my eyelids ans saw 'Giant Seremban Siu Pau' before my eyes.
I wasnt really conscious actually. Then I realized, something didnt seem right. It was the smell.. that burnt smell. What happened was, the water in the wok totally boiled up, leaving only heat in the wok, and it started fnctioning like an oven. I'm sure you know what a 大包 looks like. My steamed 大包 turned into a 烧包. Seriously, that block of charcoal bun... kept me stunned. But still, that was my dinner.

The outer layer was so badly burnt that only the filling of the pau was edible. Not long after the discovery, my mum came home. She said she could smell the burnt smell outside the house. Haihz. Great~, now my house smells burnt.

I know, I shouldnt have left the kitchen and then fell asleep. But I was really tired as I went out the whole day and had only 2hours+ of sleep this morning. Maybe you might think that I'm looking for excuses. I'll tell you, NO. I perfectly understand it was my fault.

What I'm trying to say is Dont Play Play with Cooking. If nobody noticed the incident, my house would have been burnt down. So please Be Careful at all times.

That's all i guess. Mummy, I'm sorry!

并没有发你的脾气；只是，我不舍。♥

Me?

Lose anything but NEVER EVER lose yourself. Or you'll REGRET.
Because the journey back to the preferred path hurts.

I keep telling myself I gotta learn from my mistakes.
So what have I learned lately?
-Trust only people you can trust.
-Stop being fake and get over the foolishness. Cause people roll their eyes at what I do.
-Collect more information before you speak. Make sure you know what you are talking about. Dont know what to say? Then Zip Shut!
-People are not that simple, live cautiously. Especially when you open your mouth. Cause for some reason I dont know, my words by nature always gets me in trouble. Tend to get on people nerves when I dont even notice it. Sighz... 病从口入，祸从口出。

A group of people stronger than others.
Whom everyone tries to get close to,
but at the same time fear so much.
Respect is super taken into account.
Eyes of an eagle they have,
They use it well.
Live out yourself? Bullshit. Cause fear takes over.
Suffocate.
The truth? I wont lie, I Fear You. all.

Have you known the feeling of changing for the better? When you strive and strive, but in the end in other people's eyes your efforts = nothing. I swear I tried real hard. You plant a tree but it bears no fruits? What a tragedy.

Since when life became so complicated?
Jay, Sher, Keat, Jim, Yi, I miss the old times.
Sobz..

drip drop drip drop... FINE

Bleeding and Bleeding LOVE

Wu Shu Night was a total blast!
A job well done to all who played a role that evening.

Good job to the form 4s incharge of ulang tahun LM too!
You guys did well.

I had to go when the duty started... How i wished i didnt have to go home.
Didnt do anything today... I feel damn weird.
Haihz... Wasted.. =(

Let's come to why i start blogging again..
I cant resist keeping everything in my heart anymore..
it really really hurtz...
If you dont understand, nevermind..
Just let me crap myself out of this sorrow.
Thanks for being a good reader.

Am I your shadow or what?
Sometimes I just want to stay by yourside,
though i know i wouldnt be able to help with anything,
the least i could do is to make sure you know that you are not in this alone.
dont push me aside.. SERIOUSLY! DONT!
*takes a deep breath*
Just because you know that I'll stick to you,
doesnt give you the permission to take everything I give for granted.
I need more than just a minute.
I dont know, maybe what i ask is too much?
Dont i have the right to?
You just dont know what it feels like, dont you?
Why cant you get it? Why cant you understand?

SHE - 他还是不懂
为什么当我推开门
他没有来拉住我
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我

Westlife - Forever
I'll be loving you forever
deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still, forever

Till the end,
I LOVE YOU

I never knew~

+The Unrevealed was revealed+

Sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad......
Quite sad quite sad quite sad quite sad quite sad quite sad quite sad

Hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt....
Kinda hurt kinda hurt kinda hurt kinda hurt kinda hurt kinda hurt

Dont ask me why~
Not gonna tell...
Dont feel like telling...

I always knew i was a joke....
But i wasnt aware of how serious it is~
Life in primary & secondary are really really different!

I always thought i am a super cautious person...
But i guess i just wasnt cautious enough~

So tired...
I'm still waiting for things to turn around...

Hopefully~

My Mocca

In memories of Mocca-brown...my dearest

Died on : 29th of July, 2008

He had Feline Immunodeficiency Virus(FIV)...sumting as in Cat-Aids....
He also had leukiamia...
He was suffering.... Chances of survival was weak....
We just had to put an end to his miseary...
I signed the consent form(sumting lyk a contract, allowing the doctor to put him to sleep)
I didnt see him die... I was at school....

I've always treated him as my little brother~
I LOVE HIM~
dear mocca, I will miss you, ALWAYS~

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Others:

#Rushan broke up with Anyi~
I never saw it coming...
as they've just gotten closer...
She was happy that day...
He never knew?

He thinks this is best for anyi? or himself? I do not know~
But I do know that he broke many hearts,
taking this step; making this decision...

However, it is his decision.[sumting I have to respect]

#Honestly, sumtimes...
I get fed-up and offended(in a p*ssed off way) of/by Anyi
She keeps saying things that just easily gets on my nerves...
And I'm quite disappointed of her "laziness" to care....
She doesn't care if it breaks her heart!
Never deciding for herself,
earning sumting she deserves!
In fact, they r both the same~
Never thought of changing the way things appear to be...

Today Anyi said that sum how,
she has a feeling that Sandy & Rushan couple~
So SWT!!!!
but its not impossible though~

In a nutshell, so many things happened~
all sorts of it~
and I've cried so many times.....
I took out my snoopy~
{snoopy: one of my standard 6 b'day present;
i take it out only when I'm vry vry sad-crying a lot}

But thanks for everything that made me smile~

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Something Worth Being Happy of
My name was suggested to Pn Chia [guru penasihat LM]
to represent LM for the leadership camp...
I'm vry grateful... really I am!
however, there are conditions I have to fulfill~
I've already passed up the form...
And really hoping that I get chosen!
I want to make LM proud!

Special Thanks to:
Pn Chia
Pn Teh
The LM committees
especially- Boon Wei, Jia Yi & Wei Jie